10/29/24, Midnight Madrawers.

 8:48 AM.

Goooood meowrning chat. I'm super tired and don't wanna do anything this morning. But I have a blog, so. I have to do things.

Yesterday I was streaming myself drawing a tiny doodle for my tumblr, this one to be specific.

"Doodle" I say as if this stupid piece of shit didn't take me like hours to complete. Anyways, Kay, (the person Mexican Dave Strider is referencing) happened to love it, which makes me really happy. And I'm happy with it too!!! I love the way Dave came out here, the linework for him is deliciousss.

Oh yeah, and Jake is there too I guess.

But it was lots of fun to just stream myself drawing for a short bit, haha. I should do it more often, even if I encountered some technical difficulties with actually hooking my tablet up to my computer. 

I have like a lot of random doodles that'll never see the light of day simply because I figured they weren't very interesting or anything

But now they will. Cause this is my blog and I can do what I want.

^ tested out a new brush just for the hell of it. it will never happen ever again. and not because I don't like the brush, no, just because I prefer using my bootlegged MS paint eraser brush for everything I draw. 

This one's like vent art in a weird way. I can't exactly explain it, but it's one of my favorite doodles simply because I love how I drew davepeta here and I'll probably never be able to get here ever again. My davepeta peaked here.

and these guys. I wonder what their deal is.

But yeah. Super sugoi sauce or whatever.

I figure I should really post more WIPs and shit on here, but I always forget to do just that!!!! It sucks, it really does. 

9:15 AM.

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10/28/24, METAMORPHOSIS METAMORPHOSIS METAMORPHOSIS

 10:11 AM.

Good meowrning to all, I decided to start off today's blog a little later since I got to school late. This was mainly cause I was taking out the rest of my braids this morning, and it took me at least an hour to finish. I would wish being black on my worst enemy.

But anyways, I'm in lunch right now. And I'm listening to M3tamorphosis by Playboi Carti and Kid Cudi. This song sucks so bad I love it dude. Have you ever watched something so bad you can't help but enjoy it because it's fucking hilarious?? That's exactly how I feel about this song. I heard it on tiktok like a few years back and I thought it was so terrible I couldn't help but listen to it even more. It's like the musical equivalent of watching a car crash. It's so bad, and yet you can't look away. Genuinely might be some of the worst, most incomprehensible shit I've heard in my life and yet I love it so much. 

Actually, on that note I don't get Carti in general. And I don't just mean that I can't understand half the shit he says, I mean that I don't really understand the hype behind his music in general. I tried listening to Whole Lotta Red like in 2022 or so because I really did want to understand, but I don't really remember liking that album at all. But then again, I thought Childish Gambino was the best rapper to ever "grace" a microphone that year, and Camp was the best rap album ever made, so I think I should give it a relisten. I mean after I'm done listening to ATCQ for the millionth time. I've been getting a little too into their music as of late. I mean I swear the past few days I've rarely listened to anything that isn't Tribe or The College Dropout. And y'know what? I'm happy like this. Let me hear Last Call and Can I Kick It? For the trillionth time in a row because Spotify's playlist shuffle feature is actual aids. I would not pawssibly have it any other way.

Oh yeah, and CHROMAKOPIA dropped today. I should probably give that a listen soon since everyone on my timeline is going insane about it and I have horrific FOMO. I'm too broke for Spotify Premium, so Musi is gonna come riiiight in handy at the moment. 

 10:43 AM.

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 11:50 AM.

Listening to the album right now. I am a changed man. I haven't finished it yet BUT so far St. Chroma and Sticky are my absolute favorites. I loved the feature from Glorilla and Sexy Redd. Lil Wayne was also there. KIDDING. My jaw was dropped to the floor when I heard his voice in the song I was genuinely not expecting it at all. This album is fucking great dude listening to it was one of the best decisions of my life. Always listen to FOMO, it never lies.

 12:00 AM.

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 1:33 PM.

So. The album was peak. 10/10, I loved it. Like loved it a lot. I think I have a clear favorite though. 

(Spoiler: It's Sticky. I'm sorry but that song did things to my brain I still don't fully understand.)

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Overall Rating for Today: 6.8/10

10/25/24, Father, I Stretch My Hands To Thee

 9:00 AM.

So I've kind of been off in updating my blog, sorry. I got very caught up with life and couldn't exactly fit updating it anywhere. But, I'm back now.

I had my concert yesterday, it was alright. The songs we did we boring which made it less enjoyable, but nobody was particularly egregious. I think the choir sang great, aside from the girl I heard being off key in my ear which threw me off a little. Nonetheless, good show. The band was absolutely amazing, I wish we got the fun songs they do.

I passed the ACCUPLACER too!!! Like, really well in fact. Now all is left is to email my dual credit coordinator about it so we can talk about the next step. Whatever the next step is supposed to be anyways. I kind of don't really know where to go from here, but I'll figure it out. I do most of the time.

Right now I'm in English after missing multiple english classes for days due to my tiredness. I'm still somewhat tired even now. My eyes feel so fucking heavy dude. I guess that's what I get for staying in bed for so long, since ironically when I woke up extremely early to go take my test, I wasn't tired the entire day. Really makes you think, doesn't it? 

But now that all of my choir and testing stuff is over, I wanna lock in on school and also drawing. I haven't drawn anything in a hot minute (a few days) and its bugging me. I need to do more full body stuff, I kind of suck at it. I also need to do the 'The World is Yours' jade lyricstuck that's been a constant idea in my mind for like foreeeeveeeerrrrr dude.

But that's enough needing to do things, I gotta dip soon. Hope this makes up for the lost time!

9:15 AM.

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9:24 AM.

We are playing Kahoot in history class, god is so good. I was afraid we'd have another lecture and I'd be fighting for my life not to fall asleep again. I am so unbelievably in the mood for yet another one of my daily 20 hour naps, I've missed taking them for at least two days and I guess now my body is paying the price. 

Man, I can't believe I'm gonna be graduating next year. It really is so weird to think about. I'll be graduating at 17 which gives me at least one more year of being a teenager and not in school before adulthood strikes like a stake through a vampire's heart.

Okay slightly off topic tangent but dude. Fuck Kahoot. I was in first place throughout most of the game and then some kid in my class sweeped up the 1st place spot from beneath my feet on the LAST QUESTION. All because I got this ONE question wrong. This game is fake and gay and I hate it and I hate everyone.

Back to what I was saying before though, a part of me wants to take a gap year and start college (or more realistically community college) when I'm eighteen. Just so I can enjoy the last year of my teenagedom as a 17 year old with no problems or worries in the world, but that's probably highly unrealistic given the fact that I'll definitely have to get a job and there's no way in hell my parents would allow it. Or more specifically, no way in hell my dad would allow it. Oh well, I can cross that bridge when I get to it. I'm still at the beginning of my junior year! No need to stress over it now.

I'm still so tired. I wanna take a nap. 

OH RIGHT that just reminded me, I'm probably gonna have to take my hair out this afternoon or tomorrow, which is gonna take me like FOREVER since my hair is matted like crazy. I'll have to straighten it before I start to make my life easier. IF I can find my heat comb that is, I forgot where I put it but it's probably somewhere in my room. I was thinking about trying something new and getting my shit locced, maybe sister locs or mini locs. One of my aunties has sister locs and she rocks it, soooo...why not give it a shot. Although probably not sister locs, I'm a dude. Those are for ladies. And I don't mean that in a misogynistic "dresses are for girls bluh bluh bluh" kind of way, I just mean it in the way that men don't usually wear sister locs, it's kind of in the name. 

Maybe I AM doing misogyny. Sorry women.

On another note, we're doing another Kahoot and I am bombing it. I fell off so hard bro.

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 2:21 PM.

Currently in my last class after a long ass day. I'm so tired dude. I wanna go home and take a really long nap.

I'm also really hungry, like, super hungry. I ate a tangerine and some apple sauce today for lunch and they were great but not particularly filling. I might make some spaghetti egg for when I get home since I haven't had it in a hot minute.

I just took my chem test, I'm pretty sure I did terribly on it. To be fair, it did come out of absolutely nowhere with no time for me to study. Whatever man. I'm so tired and I want to go home. But my dad just texted me telling me he'll be picking me up from my bus stop so I'm NOT getting that daily 20 hour nap today.

Oh well. Soo la voo as the french say.

 2:58 PM.

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Overall Rating For Today: 5/10. Would be better if I wasnt so sleepy.

10/21/24, And The Reason Is cause I was TIRED!!!!

 9:51 AM

Welcome back to my digital diary, so glad to have you here! So, it's been a hot minute since I've updated my blog. Mainly because I was too exhausted to really spare the energy to do it, but I've been a lot more energized today so I think I can do just that!

I was also supposed to be making a blog update I think the day before yesterday, Laz gave me a little helpful nudge to do so and I would've, but I forgot!!! I think it was because I was feeling great that day, I dunno. My memory is a little hazy on just what made the day so good in particular. But whatever. I came to school late today, mainly just because I really didn't want to go but I had to force myself out of the house. It's becoming a bit of a bad habit of mine, so I'll have to work on getting that fixed.

On the other hand, over the weekend I actually studied! For like, one of the few times in my life I ever HAVE studied. I have to take the ACCUPLACER in a few days to see what classes I'd work good with when I do some college courses over the spring, and since it's kind of a big deal to me I figured I should study for it. One problem though: I was very much avoiding it since I didn't want to study. Studying is lame!!! I wanna draw and doomscroll through twitter!!! But John gave me a tip which really helped me force myself to stay on task and study. Even if I was drumming my fingers and snapping and getting up every five minutes to walk around since I really, REALLY didn't want to study. But I did. Thank god. On the reading section of the practice test I got an 85 at first, but I retook it and got around a 90! That was enough to give me a big head until I did the Arithmetic section and got a 75. Fractions will really be the death of me I swear.

I think I'll do some more studying afterschool today, I gotta get myself prepped for this test. And I also need to lock in and get my grades up in two classes I'm unfortunately failing. Ugh, thinking about it makes me upset.

10:04 AM.

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10:12 AM.

Hey, formatting change! It's suuuper cool, right? I decided to start including the moment when I stop writing as well just for clarity's sake. It's an idea I've had for a while but never been able to properly implement it because I continuously forget. And now I have! So, no excuses.

I'm in lunch right now, today they served pizza slices with apples and milk. I already got a slice of pizza from 7/11 this morning, since I was hungry and didn't eat before I left the house. So eating yet ANOTHER slice of pizza would make me feel like shit. So I'm not going to. Instead, I'll drink up this delicious carton of milk and eat some apple slices. 

I'd kill myself if it weren't for the fact that I don't want my loved ones to have to say I died because of my school lunch being so unbelievably ass. 

10:37 AM.

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11:57 AM.

Currently in art, my teacher was just talking about a field trip she was planning to go to a college and basically be an art major for a day. But here's the best part, it happens on my BIRTHDAY!!! I didn't even know it was a Friday but apparently it is!! Dude, best birthday ever. I have to go, I really need to convince my parents to let me go. I missed the last art field trip to the museum and I'm not going to make that mistake again. 

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1:27 PM.

Now we're in sign language class. I currently have a wicked headache and I've had one since about 12 pm. God really doesn't like me today I guess. But I think I just need some more energy is all, I could get a bottle of water since I actually haven't drank any water all day. I think I might also be hungry? I don't really know, all that I do know is that my stomach and head hurt.

All that matters to me is that the day is almost over, and I have a LOT to do when I get home. I might not even be able to call or draw today, it's truly tragic. But that's the sacrifice I must make to get good grades I guess. 

I also got shit to do afterschool too, so I'll be going home later than usual. But god do I ever hate going home late for any reason, it's annoying and fucking up my usual routine. Whatever, I'm going to do what I need to regardless of if it's something I don't want to.

Currently, I'm listening to CUFF IT by Beyonce to give myself some kind of motivation or energy. Save me, Beyonce. Your elegant voice is needed in saving my ass.

1:34 PM.

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3:14 PM.

I just got out of Chemistry, that period was probably the best class I've had all day. It's the class I usually play Uno in with all of my buddies, but one of said friends was absent today. So me and one of the people in our little group, who I'll call K, basically did today's work the whole period and bantered a bit while we did so. I didn't say much since I don't talk too much, mainly since it feels like there's a clog in my throat preventing me from having any responses that are really interesting when I talk to people irl. But, me and K get along really well! He's the right amount of extroverted and easygoing which makes it easier to bounce off of him since he carries our conversations. We played Uno together and it was so, so much more fun than I thought it'd be. The guy's fucking hilarious, I love him. Plus he also dapped me up after we finished our games, he's the best. If my day's ever going shitty at least I'll have chemistry class to look forward to. 

I also decided to just go home, I have a bad headache and I'm not going to force myself to stay afterschool when I really just need some rest. And food, I think my headache is coming from hunger? I don't know, I usually feel better after some food and a nap.

But anyways, today's over. I gotta go catch my bus.

3:20 PM.

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Overall Rating For Today: 6.5/10. Uno saves lives.

P.S, today's title is a reference to The Reason by Hoobastank.

stillmatic sickmatic ofmatic nasmatic

I haven't made a blog post today cause ummm I was extremely tired all day. Just absolutely exhausted. SO INSTEADDD I wanna talk about an album I like. Or y'know, just a song.

Represent. This song is fucking peak dude. The entirety of illmatic in general is just absolute peak but I was today years old when I learned that there was a live orchestral cover of the entirety of illmatic. And it is. Wow. I listened to it at first on Spotify, and I decided that this might be one of the best things I've ever listened to, but Spotify's audio quality is kind of inferior to every other streaming site ever. So I figured, "I'm not experiencing the full scope of this song properly, let me get on musi and have the song destroy my eardrums." And then I did, and it blasted into my ears so hard my neck twitched/spasmed/whatever and I instinctively turned the music down a bit to give myself a moment to, y'know, cool my shit. Then I turned my volume all the way back up and decided "okay, let's try this again." and I listened to it, and it turned my brain into mush. The orchestra, I LOVE IT. It makes the song so much better I wont lie. This song is like. Wow. I don't even really know how to do it justice with words it's just great dude. I'm obsessed.

Illmatic in general is such a great album dude when I first listened to it I had to listen to it aGAIN because I was just blown away by it. Kanye may be one of my favorite hip-hop artists but Nas is just one of the best, no doubt about it. It's actually crazy to think that he wrote one of the greatest rap albums of all time when he was only sixteen, and then dropped it when he was NINETEEN. What am I doing with my life. I have to kill myself. NY State of Mind, Represent, The World is Yours, It Aint Hard to Tell, god they're all such bangers. I gotta relisten to illmatic. and I ALSO need to listen to more Nas in general that isn't just If I Ruled the World or Ether. UGHHHH fuck my stupid baka life Nas is so good it makes me unwell like I feel angry GRAHHHH.

Oh yeah and another thing, the existence of the Orchestral version of illmatic reminds me of Late Orchestration. If I had a nickel for every orchestra rap album I knew existed I'd have two nickels. Which is great. I want more nickels. I NEED MORE NICKELS. Anywho, I listened to Late Orchestration while I was supposed to be watching Antman: Quantumania in theaters and listening to it was the only thing I remembered while watching that movie other than Kang dying at the end of it and the conflict between Antman and his daughter. The album is like, magical. It has my favorite version of Diamonds From Sierra Leone on it, which is my favorite song off of Late Registration. It makes me wish I was alive to be there live to witness the show. I was truly born in the wrong generation.

Also, second favorite Kanye second favorite album cover. Late registration takes the cake but I'll never not love this one. They could never make me hate you Late Orchestration. Mwah, love this album.

10/15/24, Science Vs. The World.

9:06 AM.

Good Meowrning! God I'm so tired. It was a struggle getting out of bed this morning despite the fact that I'm about 80% sure I got a good amount of sleep last night, since I accidentally fell asleep on call in Jax's server. That's just what happens when I don't do my daily 15 hour nap, so unfortunate. A bad habit of mine has always been taking long ass naps after school and then waking up around 8pm, so it feels like I wasted the whole day. And I did! Womp womp. 

But I've been trying to get rid of that habit to mixed results, mostly leaning pawsitive in my opinion. Nonetheless, my sleep schedule is sort of getting better. Always something to be grateful for. 

I was supposed to be drawing yesterday but I ended up NOT doing that. Cause I'm lazy. But I'll do some today I swear!!!

9:21 AM.

I can't tell if it's cause of the sheer fogginess of my glasses, since I haven't properly wiped them down in a while, but I feel like I'm on the verge of falling asleep. Constantly. If I close my eyes more longer than 5 minutes I'm surely going to pass out and never wake up. 

It probably would've been wiser to take a half-nap on my bus ride to school. Half naps are what I call basically being asleep enough to close your eyes and rest, but being awake enough to have some kind of awareness of what's going on around you. I like taking them on the bus in the morning, even if it's not exactly satisfactory or anything. Hey, some sleep is better than no sleep.

God. I am so, so tired. 

9:53 AM.

Currently I'm continuing my reread of homestuck to make myself less tired! This reminds me of my old MSPFA idea I had. It was gonna be called Scratchbound, and I still occasionally think about it. Basically five kids play SBURB and then realize they're the result of a scratched session and meet their alpha counterparts and have to. y'know. deal with realizing that they're not actually their original versions and stuff. I've mostly abandoned it since with the introduction of my fantrolls the story gets a little convoluted, I might just end up making them their own thing separate from Scratchbound honestly. Since it's not exactly like I wanna do nothing with them, I still like my fantrolls. But I've also never been too interested in troll-heavy MSPFA's...or mspfas at all for that matter. I mean I've read a few, I liked House of Dirk, Ligmastuck, and I've read a bit of sburb.exe and Burning Down The House. But that's about as far as my mspfa reading goes.

Guidestuck is another one I've heard of, and it has a lot of fans, but I've never really wanted to read it. I'm not the biggest fan of the art style which is mainly what's keeping me from reading the thing. But yeah. I should probably read more MSPFAs and stuff.

10:25 AM.

Currently back in the library after getting some lunch from the cafeteria. I'm listening to Whip My Hair by Willow. Life is so fucking great man. I unironically love this song primarily because of the nostalgia factor it brings from having listened to it a bunch as a kid. Nothing beats shaking your braids like you have Parkinson's to Whip My Hair. We will truly never have such a song like it ever again. Willow Smith, you are a visionary.

Anywho, I'm kind of bored. I should probably use this opportunity to draw something. That'd be fun. 

9:32 PM.

So! I took yet another long break of not updating the blog because I got caught up with, you guessed it, school! I had something to do afterschool and my mom ended up picking me up late, it was practically freezing outside so. Not fun. I listened to Rilo Kiley a lot, Portions For Foxes is a really, really good song bee tee double you. God. I love it, the song makes me so happy. I talked to Daniel like a lot today which was very fun, always a joy to get to talk to him. I think I also played uno at the end of the school day, I lost twice. I guess my winning streak isn't so much of a streak as it is a really bumpy road. Hey, today I just had an off day! I'll bounce back tomorrow, scout's honor.

But at the moment I just feel really tired. Like, not sleepy or anything (well I guess I'm kind of sleepy) but also a bit drained. I really hope I don't start feeling like this all of the time. But right now I feel a lot of things about a lot of shit, none of them being particularly positive. So I think I'll end things off here.

Overall Rating For Today: 6/10. Could definitely be better.

10/14/24, I'll Be a Black Crowww in my Next Lifeeee

9:05 AM.

Howdy! I'm back on the blogggg. I don't remember my weekend being particularly interesting or anything other than doing a voice call in Jax's server w Laz, Roxy, her, Peach who I think showed up at some point? and of course. Daniel. Yay. Yesterday I was also stuck at my cousin's place and when I got home I was exhaussssted. Not a particularly good day in the slightest aside from talking to Jax for a bit, that made me feel slightly better.

I also didn't draw yesterday which made me feel shitty. I've been trying to draw more, if not actual finished pieces just practice and doodles and stuff. Y'know, for the #improvement. Stepping out of my comfort zone and all that jazz v_v. ALTHOUGH. I've also wanted to get into trying digital painting out a bit more yesterday on my phone, but I just put it off for absolutely no reason!!! Leave it to me to procrastinate on drawing for no reason. Jesus. 

Can you tell I'm not having the best morning? I dunno, I think it's just yesterday that left me feeling a little agitated this morning and I'm trying to like. Not feel like that. I am fine. I will be alright. 

10:48 AM.

Currently I'm nearing the end of my lunch period. The library was closed today so I'm in the cafeteria. It's about as much of a sensory nightmare as you'd expect but apparently the free lunch benefits haven't run out yet so could be worse! I had a single, small piece of bread. I was hoping they'd have alfredo today since it's my favorite but they did not. Freak my stupid baka life. Oh well, I have Raisin Bran to look forward to munching on when I get home. I'm pretty sure we also got some other food yesterday, so YIPPEE!!!

4:50 PM

So, as you can expect I totally forgot to update this blog for the rest of the day. #oops. But I'm currently at one of my cousin's place doing some homework, and this blog isn't very long. So I figure I can still update on some stuff.

School after 10:48 was fine for the most part. Nothing much to complain about. Although I did get out of bed late this meowrning so I was ashy as a mf like the WHOLEEE time and it was so, so uncomfortable. My hands are so dry. Someone get me out of this nightmare. I talked with Jax again which was nice, as it always is. v_v. Currently I'm listening to some more Rilo Kiley on my laptop while getting some work done which is always a nice treat. CAUSE I LOVE RILO KILEY!!!!!!! Science Vs. Romance and The Execution Of All Things are the best they are sooooo nice. 

I have my choir concert coming up like, scarily soon. And I haven't practiced any of my gospel choir songs, so I'll have to get to crunching on THAT. I'm also doing pretty shit in terms of keeping up w school stuff, I really gotta lock in soon ugh. But whatevs. I'll be fine or whatever in the end.

OH YEAH. I also literally just remembered I'm at my cousin's place and my granny lives here. And she has a CD player here. Do you guys think I could convince her to let me take it home. Don't answer that question I can't hear your pleas. BUT. DOT DOT DOT. I think I could. So I will try when I'm done with this work. That baby's coming home with me one way or another.

5:25 PM

^ Above is a photo of me attempting to complete my homework. It has truly never been more joever for me.

One day when I'm older I'm probably going to look back on this moment and envy how good I had it. When all I had to worry about was homework, my mental state, and other shit. No bills, no student debt. Nada. Well I'm not older yet, so I'm going to complain. 

In the process of me whining in my own head about having to do homework, I literally just remembered I have a playlist for the exact purpose of keeping myself on track.

The whole "Remasterbated" thing is supposed to be tacked on every playlist I decide to remake/remaster, since I would rather die than delete any of them. So. This playlist also got a remaster! Although I feel like I should remaster it again, remasterbated^2 if you will. But I kind of don't want to do that right now, so I'll do it later maybe.

Please save me, Gloria Gaynor. I NEED to survive.

Or Celia Cruz, I don't discriminate.

Honestly I've always kind of preferred Celia's cover of the song in comparison to the original. I don't even really know why, it just hits better for me.

Actually, that's a lie. After listening to them back to back I can't tell which one I like more!!! Me and my indecisiveness, my life truly is so hard.

5:50 PM.

In the span of me doing this work, I also remembered that I've really wanted to try playing more video games as of late. I don't really play video games like, at all. In elementary school I loved roleplaying on Roblox, specifically Robloxian High School and MeepCity. Oh yeah, and I was really into Fashion Famous/Frenzy (I can't remember which name it was so I sort of use them interchangeably) as a wee little meat toddler playing Roblox on my mother's laptop. But like a few years back I used to have a Nintendo Switch and play Mario Party a bunch with my cousins, along with playing Deltarune (although I played it once, and so long ago I remember just about nothing that happened in it) but then I got it taken away, and given to one of my other cousins. And said cousin broke it. Fuck that guy. I also used to play Undertale a lot on my old computer at the height of my UT obsession, specifically just so I could get to the True Pacifist ending over and over again. Never Genocide though, I was too much of a fat baby for that. And also I'm big into the classic Sonic games if that counts since they're the only ones I've played! But other than those, I was never too big on videogames. Most of my friends like playing first person shooters like Overwatch and TF2 and stuff. 

6:12 PM.

Jesus Christ I got extremely distracted. What was I talking about again? Right. Videogames. A lot of my friends I think are more into first person shooters which hasn't ever been particularly intriguing to me, but that could probably be attributed to my lack of major interest in videogames that aren't Sonic the Hedgehog in general. I'm like the videogame equivalent of the type of people who are like "I don't usually listen to this rap stuff, but Eminem is pretty good!" And I thought I couldn't get any whiter. But I've always at the very least wanted to try out playing Smash Bros. Even if I'm horribly afraid I'll suck at it. Which I probably will. But hey! You live and you learn.

9:20 PM.

Alright, I think I’m done writing for today. Overall, a lot better than what I started with. And that makes me really, really happy to think about. I’m glad I have my friends, and I’m glad that I’m alive! After all, aren’t those two things what life is all about? It’s corny, sure, but I think talking to my buddies always makes my life a little more full of joy.

Overall Rating for Today: A Solid 8.5/10. I love the silly little people in my phone. <3

10/10/24 & 10/11/24, One Time, For Ya Mind

 9:00 AM.

So! I sort of forgot to update my blog yesterday. Sorry, I got very distracted all day. But now we're back, and we're doing things. Yeah. Lots of things. 

If it helps yesterday night I whiteboarded in Jax's server w/ her, Dan, & John for a bit. Kami was also there for a little while but they left. RIP. Still, it was a lot of fun. My favorite doodle was probably the Rilo Kiley davejade doodle that I did in there, Science vs. Romance is such a davejade song in my head for reasons unbeknownst to me. I just associate Rilo Kiley heavily with Jade I guess. Might be a voice claim thing now that I think about it. I don't know!

Here r all of the doodles I think I did in whiteboard.

9:40 AM.

We're now in 2nd period, taking notes during my history lecture. I forgot to do a history assignment yesterday, so I'll have to do it when I get home. And I also forgot to renew my sibling and I's free lunch benefits, so I'll have to do that too. God my life is so hard.

1:04 PM, 10/11/24.

So! I once again forgot to update. I seriously came home and then woke up to talk to Daniel for about an hour and fell back asleep. I was so tired that today I just ended up skipping school. So I'm at home, and I figure I could do something useful like updating my blog and listening to Beyonce!

God. I love Ego. But you know what I love even MORE? Kanye West.

Kidding, I thought his feature on the remix was alright, I still do really like it though. 

Anyways, my hair is matted like crazy dude. This usually happens when I get a new hairstyle done thats an afro, matting galore. It's extremely annoying. I've been considering straightening it which is what I usually do when my hair is near the end of it's course, to very mixed results. But I'm sort of sick of the hair I've got going right now, and I can barely braid my own hair. So, it is what it is. I sincerely hope I don't look like I'm trying too hard to be white or something. I've gotten that comment from my family more times than I can blink. I don't need to try to be white, I just AM white. Coleslaw and (uhhhh whatever other shit white people eat) are my favorite meals. SAVE AGARTHA!!!!! (I still have no idea what the fuck that means)

Anyways, I gotta go down to Wendy's to try out a Krabby Patty. I'll be back in a bit!

1:29 PM.

Nevermind. I’ve finally figured out how to use this site on my phone with the power of Safari. So I guess I’ll blog as I’m on my trip. I’m on the bus…since I can’t drive…I mean hey, I’ll learn how to eventually!! My parents wanna make me take some kind of test I forgot the name of before my sixteenth birthday, so I should probably start studying up on my drivers manual that I almost never read. 

I also now realize I probably should’ve told my mom before stepping out of the house. Oh well! 

2:14 PM.

Pro tip: if you’re broke and planning on taking a bus somewhere, that planning should also probably include your bus route back. Because if your public transportation system is about as unreliable as mine is then planning a bus route will almost always be a massive pain in the ass. At the moment, none of the scheduled busses I need to get back home seem to be arriving any time soon, so I’m kind of fucked. I offered to pay for an uber for me and my sibling and they said no, so. Shrug. I kind of don’t really know what to do. I think I’m just gonna loiter for a while and hopefully a bus comes that we can take home. And if it doesn’t, I guess I’m just walking back home. No matter how agonizing the trip back will inevitably be.

On the bright side, the nap I’m gonna take when I get home is gonna go CRAZY. I’ll be knocked out like I just fought with Floyd Mayweather.

2:54 PM.

This site is such a pain in the ass to use on mobile. Anyways, a bus might be coming to get us which is pretty great, even if u take it with a grain of salt considering, y’know, the bus system is still extremely unreliable. But I still have a glimmer of hope for the future, and I sincerely hope that hope is not absolutely annihilated.

3:08 PM.

God is dead and public transportation killed him. 

4:32 PM.

SO! I'm finally home. After a long bout of walking and losing my religion, I made it home. I think I'll end today's life update right about here.

Overall Rating For Today: 8/10. Whole time I didn't even buy the Krabby Patty.

10/9/24, Je Suis Pala Pala

 9:22 AM. 

Goooood meowrning beautiful people. I got to school about an hour ago and I wasn't late, which is super cool. I did forget to renew my free lunch benefits yesterday though and I'm pretty sure today's the last day to do that for me and my sibling, so I'll get on that later. I have to do just about everything in this family.

Anyways, at the moment I'm in my second class and I saw the Powerpoint cover which made me so afraid we were gonna have a lecture today. But luckily we don't, thank god. Just some other boring history work that I'll get around to later. 

Last night I'm pretty sure I fell asleep on call with Jax and Peach after John, Roxy and Dave left. It didn't even occur to me I fell asleep until I heard Jax call my name and that woke me up pretty quickly. My mom was home too, it's a miracle she didn't kill me for that when she came back from work since it was around like. 2 in the morning. But yeah. Pretty fun call. 

Today though I really wanna do more drawlloween tricks for people and get my points up. And also just because it's good for me to draw some more. I also gotta finish that Pac-Man roxygen as well. Baby's first timely roxygen, it's enough to make a grown man cry. I do still feel like I need to draw a lot more than I do usually. Also, dan pointed this out yesterday but it's a little funny how I went from drawing every once in a blue moon to drawing a lot more frequently in comparison to Mr. Danman who used to draw like every day and doesn't draw as often. We switched places or something. Man, I guess he wasn't lying when he said he was my twin.

At the moment I'm listening to some african music since I was feeling nostalgic (which is also where the title of today's blog post comes from in case you're wondering.) And it's unfortunately not really doing it for me at the moment. I might switch to my goth playlist to switch it up or listen to Freshman Adjustment again if I feel like it. Everyday I pray Kanye remasters some of the songs on that mixtape and actually drops them on Spotify.

Actually, given his last album I don't pray that happens. I pray that doesn't happen for the sake of my sanity.

I decided to switch it up and listen to some Nas instead, god I love NY State of Mind. It's a basic bitch choice but I don't care!!! The song goes so hard dude. But I'm also really in the mood to listen to The Good, The Bad, The Ugly. But I'm also in the mood for some Rilo Kiley. But I'm ALSO in the mood for some goth music. But I'm ALSO in the mood to listen to some They Might Be Giants since I haven't listened to them in a while and I miss the song Twisting. It's easily my second favorite TMBG song, Birdhouse In Your Soul being my absolute favorite. Anyways, curse my indecisiveness. My life truly is so hard.

10:15 AM.

I had an abnormally large tangerine for lunch. It was simply delectable. Which reminds me, the other night I was on call withe the sugoi saucers and I turned my camera on and started eating a tangerine, to which they all stared at me in horror and disgust. Laz said it was because I eat tangerines like I eat apples, which when I think about it is pretty true. I just prefer to take bites out of my tangerine to where I'm eating about 3 at a time rather than just a measly one little tangerine. Greedy, sure. But it's so worth it.

Right now I'm listening to TMBG and I'm somewhat satisfied with this decision.

I got jumpscared when I first turned this song on because I haven't listened to it in ages and I saw johndave. BAH!!!! no wonder people are homophobic this is scary AF!!!!

I'm kidding. I love pepsicola. Pro-tip; If I ever gush on and on about how much I hate a character or a ship theres a 50% chance I actually love it and this is just how I get the love out. Exhibit A:

For further context: Checkers is my friend Mok's cat. I love him so much cause he's a cat, and also a tuxedo cat at that. He's so cute!!!! I usually call him my son because I'm like basically his godfather despite never seeing him irl. I even have him on the bottom left corner of my homescreen because I just love Checkers that much. God. I fucking despise that cat and I need it to die. He's like my horribly disease ridden son who should be burned at the stake for committing the cardinal sin of being alive. I wish I could throw him in a dumpster god I fucking hate checkers. I hope he dies. 

10/8/24, 500 Days of Praying for Paris.

 8:45 AM.

Hi party people! I'm back after four whole days of not updating my blog, mainly cause I think I didn't go to school in those four days. I say I think because I really only remember the weekend being three days long, not four. So where'd the extra day go? It's beyond me, and I'm not gonna think about it too hard.

Over the weekend I was doing some things for Drawlloween, an event in Jax's server with a bunch of her friends. It was a lot of fun, even if I only managed to get in like, what, 18 points? I really need to draw more but that would also require me to draw. And who the hell wants to do that?

10:01 AM.

Currently, I'm in the end of my second class. I just got done taking a test that I kind of bombed. But the actual grade is kind of bullshit when I only got about 3 questions wrong out of the questions that were actually scored, which is like 15. Whatever, I'll have to wait for the grades to come out to know if I actually bombed it or not.

At the moment I'm listening to Electric Relaxation by A Tribe Called Quest, god I love this song. But while I was bored and listening to unreleased kanye songs, and like the entirety of his first mixtape Freshman Adjustment, I discovered that he apparently did a remix of that song, which is kind of expected since I'm pretty sure he's made a tribe reference in two of his songs before. I don't think I remember thinking too much of it honestly. I'll have to listen to it again.

10:26 AM.

We are now in lunch. I just came back from the cafeteria after eating an apple. I think I should probably do something for drawlloween right now since I have free time. BUT I DONT WANNA DRAWWWW. 

Whatever. We have to do things we don't want to sometimes. 

11:17 AM.

So. I kind of lost the plot a little. And by that I mean I got extremely distracted and forgot to update my blog. Gomen reader-kuns, I'll try not to have shitty memory next time.

On the bright side, I did get those drawlloween things done! If I can get those in this post I will, but for now you're just going to have to wonder what it is I drew. Oh goodie. But y'know what I'm really in the mood to do right now?

Who's ready for his 21st rewatch of 500 Days Of Summer.

ME!!! I AM!!!! God I love this movie. I kind of have no idea what my relationship to movies is since I love movies enough to be able to go to the theater and love it all the time but not enough to do something like. I dunno. Making a letterboxd? I'm not exactly a movie lover the same way I love music I guess.

But what I DO know is that I love 500 Days of Summer. Definitely my favorite movie at the moment. GODDD I love this movie. Currently I'm on call w/ Jax, Roxy, John, and Dave and they're all playing overwatch or something. I'm not much of a #gamer outside of occasionally replaying the classic Sonic games because they're fucking pawesome. 

My phone died. This is so embarrassing. I sincerely hope they did not all leave the call the moment I did as much as a stupid thought that is to have.

They didn't. I'm still good. You fail to consider how much of an anxious worrywart I truly am. Psychologists would have a field day with me.

Anyways, movie time. Shout out to archive.org for having this movie available to watch so I don't have to keep leeching off of Laz for his Disney+ account. 

SPOILERS FOR THE MOVIE!!! OBVIOUSLY!!!

Currently they're doing the main sequence where Us by Regina Spektor is playing and we're going through a bunch of childhood memories from Tom and Summer. I always loved this segment, and wished it was a little longer if only just because I love 'Us.' great song. 10/10.

I kind of forgot that the quality of the movie on this site is so AIDS. Like. Major aids. but that's okay as long as I get to watch the damn movie.

Watching this also reminds me that I really need to finish watching Garden State. I started watching it with my mom and I never finished it since it had too many curse words. Now that I'm a big boy who watches big boy movies alone, I should probably finish it at some point..

11:57 AM.

Y'know the more I watch this the more I realize Tom sucks so bad. It's almost a little endearing. Like. God. He's such a fucking loser.

AHHHHHHHHHH HERES THE PART WHERE HE SINGS HERE COMES YOUR MAN BY THE PIXIES

Sorry. It's been a favorite part of this movie of mine for like the longest time ever cause this movie introduced me to the song and its so goated. SO GOATED. Can we get some "W Movie"'s in the chat.

12:06 AM.

Now we're at the fax room kiss scene. God I kind of dread and/or hate this scene. It's like the beginning of the end in some weird way. 

12:09 AM.

We are now in the Ikea scene(? more like a part, honestly) of the movie where Summer and Tom do lovey-dovey stuff in there and There Goes The Fear by The Doves plays. This is also a scene which made me fall in love with that song. I love so many songs from this movie's soundtrack.

I also love the way Summer says "oh, honey that's because it isss deliciousss." the line delivery is so smooth and sweet. Reminds me of butter.

God. Anyways I was going to say before I got distracted with Twitter was that a lot of people call this movie a horror which I don't get and think is a very. Interesting take to put it lightly. Maybe it's cause I'm coming at this movie from the perspective of someone who wasn't wrecked by a situationship (that's a lie. I have been.) but I just really don't see it. I saw it more as a coming of age thing if anything, or like, y'know, a movie about reflecting on your life and trying to get better. Which I guess is basically coming of age but y'know. I'm not a cinephile!!! Sue me!!!

Also during the sequence where You Make My Dreams plays and there's a brief marching band, I wish every day that part was extended or something. It would make MY dreams come true.

But back to the other thing. This movie is not a horror! Calm down!!! And I guess people who say that are clearly exaggerating and stuff but it doesn't make it any less stupid. 

12:49 AM.

So the movie watch has been paused. 

Actually, no. I still wanna continue my rewatch. But I also have to finish my pac-man Roxygen. And I also wanna liveblog it. God really does hate me.

So I think I'll end off today's blogpost here. See you in the meowrning.

Hi Jax.

 You told me to make a post saying hi so I did!!!! Yay!!!

10/4/24, Sixpence None The Shitter

12:04 PM.

I was going to experiment with making the time font bigger but I decided against it. For reasons unbeknownst to me. I am an enigma of sorts. But anyways, you might be pondering as to why I'm starting today's blog so late. And there's a very apt explanation for this! I got sent down the rabbit hole of using tiktok despite never using the app.

In the words of one of my very good faggot friends, Jesus Christ of Lazareth, I've been told that I, "Use Tiktok a little like weed." in the sense that I like one tiktok (which he compared to taking a hit) and then go on a scrolling spree (getting high) only to never touch the app again for months on end (taking a tolerance break) and at some random interval of time the cycle repeats itself. Today, I was unfortunate enough to take a single hit and get stuck on that app throughout my second and third periods. In that hour or so of being on Tiktok, I (ALLEGEDLY) sent my friends about 70 or so tiktoks that I percieved to be humorous, a real hum-dinger if you will. Honestly, even just that (ALLEGED) estimate is pretty fucking low in terms of just how far I could and should be able to go with spamming my friends with Tiktoks. I could've done a hundred if I really put my back into it. I should've done a hundred. I should've put my back into it. My already pain-inducing, horrendous back. 

I was, however, reminded of the fact that Spotify Wrapped Season is only about a month away. This I am very, very excited for. It's probably a no-brainer that Kanye will be at the top of my wrapped this year, just as he was last year. But the thing I'm really curious for is who's going to take the number two spot, since I've had nothing short of a few depressive episodes this year and as a result streamed a LOT of Mitski. Not to mention the time I was dedicated to beating my friend's Mitski streams so bad that I had her on loop for weeks just to beat xem. And I DID. HA. The only downside was that also sent me into a mental spiral. But as long as it's for Mitski, it's so, so worth it. Coldplay, Panic! At The Disco, Nicki Minaj, and the Dresden Dolls are also some good runner ups for the number two spot. Jesus, I haven't listened to P!ATD in a WHILE. Probably because they suck.

Kidding, P!ATD rules. 

But that realization made me want to relapse into listening to their music again since I was obsessed with just about every song on A Fever You Can't Sweat earlier this year, I seriously don't know what happened with that. Maybe it was becoming better friends with renowned P!ATD obsesser fan Daniel "Sirskinnydanny" Nolastnamegiven and realizing all panic fans are dorks. 

1:08 PM.

"All panic fans are dorks." I type while I continue my millionth stream of Sleigh Ride by Leroy Anderson and the Boston Pops Orchestra. Sorry. I suddenly got in a jolly mood to listen to some christmas music. I love christmas music so much.

But the orchestral cover of Sleigh Ride has to be one of my favorite christmas songs despite being one without any actual lyrics, and it has been since I was a wee little meat baby. It used to play on the radio all the time during Christmas season and I'd just enjoy having it on loop while rocking my tiny head to the orchestra's beautiful, upbeat performance. I've always had this animation idea of doing a homestuck christmas animation (how can I make this about homestuck...) to Sleigh Ride, specifically with Jasprose and Davepeta pretending to be Earth C santa and carrying off toys and gifts to all of Earth C's residents. I also had an idea to do an animation about the ancestors but with Do You See What I See? Since it's ancestors material in my head. Although I would have to refreshen myself on Alternia lore for it since my memory is pretty rusty. Just what happens when you are a naturally very forgetful person such as myself. Or in the words of Daniel, which are also apparently my words despite me having no recollection of typing them, "I have the memory of a goldfish."

There being evidence of me doing something I legitimately don't ever remember doing is terrifying. Take care of your brain kids, don't watch Sonic Zombie Diaries at a young age. 

God, I really hope my teacher continues her streak of not showing up to school this week and isn't here next period.

1:28 PM.

She is here today. God hates me and punishes me for my existence by consistently ruining my life.

2:23 PM.

So, I was SLIGHTLY overreacting. I had a test today and it went pretty well. I only really struggled with one of the questions so otherwise I'm pretty sure I aced that ASL test. I'm so goated. 

Speaking of which, I just got finished taking my Chemistry retake since he was giving out retakes to everyone in the class. Not like I did absolutely horrible on the actual test, (the grade was boosted to a 74%, yay) but if I'm given an opportunity like this no way in hell am I not taking it if I can possibly get a better score. I'm split 50/50 on how I did on the test, it's kinda beyond me. But hey, I just hope I did better. 

I also played a few games of uno today with my friends and WON. god I'm so fucking goated dude.

Overall Rating for Today: 8.5/10. Pretty damn good!!! :D

10/3/24, A Rush of Blood to the Essay

 9:24 AM.

Yesterday evening was so much fun, I really should've blogged about it in hindsight. I did some homework on call with Daniel & Jax, and Roxy who showed up for a bit, and then I just started doing a bunch of strawpage gimmicks for some people I like randomly. It was so. much. FUN. I didn't think I could crank out that many silly doodles over those hours but I did haha. I just really hope the colors didn't get super fucked up since the colors on my computer screen are indeed, very fucked up in comparison to literally anywhere else. It's such a pain in my ass when I need to do colors in firealpaca or magma. My favorite one was the Rose doodle I did for Lole's strawpage. That one was really good!!! I loved the linework and her cute little expression. UGH. so cute. I need to collect more strawpage's and do some more gimmicks for them just because v_v.

I also got a lot of English homework done yesterday which was fucking great, and I slept normally and woke up normally too! I think that the call I did yesterday was like the setup for today being so pawesome and great.

10:24 AM.

I'm currently in lunch, well, the library actually. But this is my lunch period, so go figure. I did go to the Cafeteria in hopes that they'd have made some pasta today, but they didn't. :( I was really looking forward to eating some alfredo since I love alfredo, and the one they make at school is delicious. It didn't get me too down though, cause I just ate an apple instead and it was very filling. The apple was dark red, and I love dark red apples. They're probably the best kind since they're not as sweet as apples with a brighter hue like bright red, green, or yellow apples. The sweetness usually kills my sensitive teeth, so I can't eat those kinds (not to mention green apples just taste weird in general, never been a big fan of them.) But dark red apples are perfect, juuuuuuuust right.

I was listening to Science Vs. Romance by Rilo Kiley and I gotta say, god do I love that song. I probably had a lot more to say about how much the song is a big comfort and means a lot to me, but then I got distracted by something else. RIP. On the bright side now I'm listening to Us by Regina Spektor, a song I fell in love with due to my 18 or 19 rewatches of 500 Days of Summer. I really love this song. I mean I know I say that a lot but like. really. it's such a nice listen. and it reminds me of callieroxy for some reason (how can I make this about homestuck...) but Ms. Spektors voice is so, so beautiful. The violin/viola (one of them. I was never an orchestra kid so I can't tell the difference) in the back is just so pretty to listen to combined with the piano as well. It's such a beautiful song all around and if it ever left the earth I'd kill myself. Today is so fucking great dude, I don't think anything could ruin my mood. 

Oh yeah! and yesterday I made a silly little Jade doodle in whiteboard since I wanted some warm-up before I started my gimmick spree. 

I can't really explain the thought behind it, all I can remember is that I wanted to draw something relating to Jade Harley's loneliness. And I think I made it a little clear I guess. Wait, no. I also remember that I was originally gonna do Alt! Calliope but I didn't want to do her dress. God forbid. So we have this instead. v_v 

OH YEAH!! and I also realized I should probably explain the thought behind today's blog title! Well it was originally gonna be A Rush of Blood to the Disco as a way of combining A Rush of Blood to the Head (like the Coldplay song.) and Panic! at the Disco. But I figured I make enough references in my blog titles and not enough that actually relates to anything in the blog post itself. I was going to bring up the fact that I was very much avoiding doing an essay yesterday because we had to watch a movie for it, and the movie in question was just. sort of boring. Plus I really didn't wanna do an essay. So Jax and Dan kept shitting on me for my refusal to do it. They're such assholes. But I'll prooooooobably do it at SOME point. I still want that grade. 

Anyways, I'm bored so what else to do other than the thing I do best.

Which is reading homestuck.

God. Rose is just like me for real. Shout out to my absolute favorite homestuck character.

Sometimes when I'm talking to my friends I like to pull out my imaginary pen and write down things that they say which particularly interest me in my imaginary therapist notepad, which will go into their imaginary patient file to come back to later.

Anywho, it's currently 10:52 and lunch is gonna end soon. I'll be back here in a bit!

12:01 PM.

"A bit" he says as he returns in about two hours. But I am currently in art, returning from my choir class.

I was also thinking in choir how much I really hate school security guards. Not because I'm a delinquent who likes to get in trouble or anything, no. It's because they suck. I firmly believe that just about 80% of all school security guards get some weird power trip from their job, and the 20% who don't just do it for money. Which is fine, get your bag I guess. But the saddest ones are the security guards who are just actual police officers who get stationed watching over the school for some reason. Like imagine training to be a police officer. going to police academy or whatever, and you get stationed off at a high school for a good 80% of the year. Personally, I'd kill myself. But I understand why we have them. In the words of my arch nemesis; "This is America, don't catch you slippin' now." and I doubt any high school in America could sleep well at night with the knowledge that they have bad security in this day and age. So I guess I should be kinder to them.

But will I be? No. 

God I'm so bored. I wanna do more strawpage gimmicks. 

Overall Rating for Today: 8/10

10/2/24 Can I Build God, Then We'll Talk? (Yes You Can!)

 9:55 AM.

Goooood meowrning party people. Currently in history, this class went pretty great. We really just did a class long lecture and I took a bunch of notes and attempted to answer some questions, Everyday I thank god my teacher speaks slow enough for me to take notes, lectures are pretty fun when they're not boring. 

10:22 AM.

I just came from the cafeteria since I could actively feel my braincells dying from the lack of food I've had to eat today. Mostly just to the point where it was a little (very) hard to think and I felt a little cranky (hangriness is a real thing!!! Don't let the liberal agenda fool you!!!) since I only had like. a little bit of scrambled eggs, bacon, and cheese for breakfast. They were all cut up and combined, the lunch ladies usually use an ice cream scooper to dish them. But that was definitely not a satisfactory breakfast judging by my brain fog. But I had an apple and some milk for lunch and I guess that was enough to not having me feeling too hangry or foggy anymore, even if I can still feel some of that fog. 

While I was in History class though, I was thinking of the fact that I think I need to make another playlist. This once specifically to set the mood of songs like Electric Relaxation or The World is Yours. And I also need to name it some stupid shit. 

It's purrfect.

Well. Not really. I kind of wanted it to be something silly like how Leon's playlist names are usually pretty nonsensical. 

Thank you, user BATMANSBOOBCLUTCHER for the inspiration behind me wanting to make a new playlist name. 

Forgive me if I didn't get the quote right. I've never seem JJK in my life and I don't intend on watching it anytime soon. All I know is the white demon who every jjk fan is obsessed with, Gojo or whatever his name is. I mean I he's kind of attractive? Not really like peak anime boy hottness or something but he's fine looking. And even then what *is* peak anime boy hottness? Can you tell I barely watch any anime?

Anywho, I gotta go to my choir class. I'll be back here in a bit.

2:25 PM.

"I'll be back here in a bit" I say as I proceed to disappear for about 5 hours. But I did leave early to go to my appointment. Turns out, I don't have scoliosis which is something to be grateful for! They did give me a possible explanation of my pain but I wont disclose it here. Just keep wondering for now.

Now I'm at home, on my bed, wanting to express my artistic prowess by drawing. And yet, something forbids me from doing that. I wonder what it is, truly. But I might do a study or something if I feel up to the task. For now, this is where today's post ends.

Overall rating for today: 7/10. Leaving school early is the best.

10/01/24, The Story of Princess Munecat and The Eighteen Pounces of HORROR!!!

10:36 AM.

Did you notice that the timestamp is slightly larger font than usual? What an astute observation! Give yourself a pat on the back for that one. 

Anywho, it's currently lunch time! I'm in the library since I only ever stay in the library during my lunch periods. I might head over to my choir class early if I so chose to, but honestly I don't even really know when this period ends. I still barely have the school schedule memorized, all I know is when school ends and begins. But anyways, I overslept yesterday and ended up waking up around 8 or 9. Big Mistake when you're supposed to be getting homework done afterschool. Which I tried to do by crunching the absolute shit out of it, but I was unable to focus and ultimately unsuccessful. Frowny face. :(. I really wish I had some sort of extension on these things. Or, y'know, also just stopped sleeping so much from being exhausted all day and invested in getting some coffee to corrupt my teenage brain.

If there is one thing I really wanna do though, it's maybe making some shit for Rosemary Month. I rarely if never draw Rosemary, which sucks because I love them. Especially Rosemary in the earlier acts, (or I guess pre-meteor Rosemary) god they were so cute. But that would also require me drawing Kanaya and trying to come up with a better design for her, which I gotta do. I don't think I have any particular design traits which differ much from how people usually draw Kan though. Besides maybe fucking around with the idea of giving her laid edges, which is yet another design idea stolen from Jax because I really, really like it! But yeah, never been a better time to be a yuri enjoyer. 

I also got an appointment with a specialist tomorrow for my scoliosis, which means I get to leave school early! Hooray for me! I haven't had a full week of me having full days of school without any tardies or absences in a WHILE. Mostly cause I keep getting to school late, picked up early by my parents, or just not going altogether. Hey, I'm not complaining. Mostly anyways. But it does make me feel like a bit of a slacker. But hey, ain't no shame in my game.

11:54 AM

So I just got back from my choir class and we got a new song for specifically the Sopranos and Altos to perform, it's pretty good honestly. I like doing it a lot better than I enjoy anything else we've done so far. But as of now I'm in art class and I don't wanna do much. I might pull out my sketchbook and do some doodles or studies or something just to keep my art brain active. 

I was singing some Dresden Dolls songs yesterday though while I was distracted from doing my homework and it got me thinking of how much I really wanna perform a Dresden Dolls song some day, even if it might be seemingly impossible due to how fast paced the songs I like are. Sex Changes is currently my second favorite DD song, and the lyrics of that song make me not want to perform it under any circumstances. Mainly cause' despite the whole triple entendre nature of that song it can very easily be interpreted as being transphobic due to the lyrics. And honestly they kind of are. Like I KNOW Amanda Palmer has frustrations with people only taking the song and interpreting it exclusively as a song about being trans when it could also very well be interpreted as a song about having an abortion or a loss of virginity, but people focus on that one interpretation because if you were trying to do a song that's a triple entendre and one of the meanings is a very, VERY shittily written take on trans people, of course people are going to focus on the shitty take! What did you expect? I don't think Amanda Palmer is currently transphobic or anything, but god that song is something I have such weird feelings on despite it being a second favorite of mine. 

Anyways, the number one candidate for performing live would probably be Bad Habit since I can manage to control my breathing during it somewhat good. And I also just really like that song too.

1:38 PM

I doodled this silly thing during my art class because I was listening to Try A Little Tenderness by Otis Redding and I always imagined the prospit kids performing that song with Jake doing vocals. But can he actually sing though? No. He cannot. At least I don't think he can. I've always wanted to do a Jane & John animation to either Touch The Sky by Kanye & Lupe Fiasco or Otis by Jay-Z & Kanye West (Certainly a common denominator here) for like one of my birthdays or just because. It'd be pretty hashtag sweet. 

Speaking of Try a Little Tenderness, god damn that song is so fucking good. I don't know if I've ever spoken in debt about it but I really do love the song. Like a lot. Thank you Mr. West for putting me onto some bangers through sampling the songs. 

I also just realized next period I have a test I don't have high hopes I'll pass. That's okay though, I can certainly try!

3:29 PM

So. I got a 65% on that test which means I slightly bombed it. But there are two questions worth a lot of points that are ungraded, so the actual score might be higher. I got like, three questions wrong out of 18, so to me it's total bullshit that I scored so low. Whatever, I tried.

Overall rating for today: 6/10. Wasn't too bad, can't complain.