1/15/25, Oversleeping is the Most Fun a Boy Can Have Without Taking His Clothes Off

Back with another blog update, who clapped.

Okay, but I figured I should try to be more frequent than the travesty that was Dec & November updates, jesus. I mean updating daily in October was a lot, like, a LOT. But I don't want to abandon this blog completely, I like having a place where I can scream my thoughts to the void and my friends occasionally read it.

Speaking of friends, I had a hell of a lot of fun playing Roblox with some people from a server I'm in. We all played bloxxy bingo for a while and I had so much fun with it. 

Look, it's me! Meulin!

This doesn't have absolutely everyone who was there (RIP John, Roxy & August), but it has mostly everyone, so it counts. I didn't win a single game and there were some people who kept jumping up on our table I'm pretty sure cause we were all homestucks or something. It was pretty funny. I love screenshotting moments like this where I'm fucking around in Roblox with people I like because it's nice to have photos of me having fun with people who I enjoy playing with, even if a part of my brain makes me feel like I'm being a bit overzealous over some silly Roblox games. But I want to kill that part of myself, kill the part of you which cringes and all that. I'd much rather be sincere and enjoy something that's stupid than give into typical teenage irony poisoning which attempts to convince you that any slither of having fun is embarrassing, actually. I hate that mentality and I hate talking to people like that who think that almost everything is embarrassing. It's okay to care about things, I promise. Nonchalance is a prison.

Anywho, I've also been getting into responsibility lately. And by that I mean making more of an effort to turn in my work on time and get to school on time since I have a horrific amount of absences in my English class. My english teacher has been inexplicably gone for about four months at this point so we've had a substitute every day handing out book work, and I haven't been able to do it since I've been so late. As a result, my grade fucking tanked. It's going to be a lot of work to get it back up if I even can before the quarter ends, but I'm going to try. It obviously wont be a B or an A, but I'll settle for a C before I even entertain the idea of settling for not trying at all. I'm just going to try to get my shit together as much as I pawssibly can, and whatever happens happens.

Although, to make up for my absence yesterday my teacher had me write an essay on what I wanted to change in 2025. I wish I'd taken a picture of it since I think it was a pretty good, thoughtful essay. A little too purrsonal though, there's one thing I wish I hadn't said for fear of my school's social worker pawssibly seeking me out about it or something. I don't know what it is with me being so afraid of that woman, I've never even met her and I didn't know she existed until last year. But I think it's because when I think of a Social Worker my mind typically goes straight to CPS (as useless as they are), and I don't want to get taken away from my Mom. So my one sided beef with that lady continues...

Other than that, today was as mediocre as most days are, especially because I came home and overslept like crazy. My sibling hadn't come back from school for a bit (for whatever reason), and my Mom was still at work, not to mention the heater wasn't on so the house was cold as hell. Snow is great and all but I don't like feeling like my fingers are about to frost to death while I'm trying to do a minute task like taking out the trash. So I slept out of boredom, and I ended up waking up around like, 9 pm before I fell asleep again and woke up at 10. What a waste of a day, seriously. I'm kind of glad I stayed up a bit to do some homework and do *something* for a few hours before I go back to sleep. So I think I'll draw and then go back to sleep, I gotta be up in 3 hours to get ready for school. Any and all sleep is precious!!!

This is spidey, signing out. 

Sherlock, The Suicide-Inducing Shitshow.

OBVIOUS SPOILER WARNING FOR BBC SHERLOCK. *if you care about that sort of thing to begin with.

Hi, currently going through the finale of BBC Sherlock since I've been binging it for a while and it's a show I happen to really, really like. I gotta say though, this last season has been really fucking rough. But this last episode is. well. it's something.

Prior to ever watching the show I saw Sarah Z's hour long video on TJLC, The JohnLock Conspiracy, and most of my knowledge on it came from that vid. It's also what got me interested in wanting to watch it to begin with, so when I remembered Angelo's Disney+ subscription comes with Hulu (thanks again for letting me leech off you my guy, I am forever indebted to you) I figure, why the hell not. And I'm grateful I did, the first two seasons were really, really good. The Reichenbach Fall was an amazing finale for the show, absolutely gut-wrenching. I would've been satisfied if the show had ended there in all honesty. But then season 3 happened, and I thought season 3 was...okay. It wasn't bad or anything, they made some changes I liked (such as introducing Mary, love her to death.) and some changes I DIDN'T like (such as choosing to not explain the mystery of The Reichenbach Fall, and also Sally Donovan just being inexplicably absent after season 2, and FUCKING MORIARTY.) but I think for the most part it was. passable. not as good as the first two but still okay at most.

But season 4, jesus, what is even happening. I've never witnessed a show fall off as hard as Sherlock has and it's killing me. 

Oh my god I'm watching this as I'm writing and THIS NIGGA MORIARTY IS *STILL* HERE????? ???????????????/ HOW???????????? We all saw him blow his own brains out on that rooftop but I guess the fact that Sherlock is somehow STILL alive already implied the fact that Moriarty very well could have survived too. And I guess after endlessly edging and teasing us about whether or not he's still alive (If I hear the words "Did You Miss Me?" one more time I'm going to shoot myself I swear to god) and then finally deciding that, yeah, he's dead and not coming back, HE WAS ALIVE THE WHOLE TIME. LOVELY. PAWESOME. 10/10 WRITING. I'M HAVING SO MUCH FUN.

Also good god if they make this faggot say some more gay shit again I'm gonna kill everyone. It's so incredibly obvious that they want to make him the effeminate homo villain and I think anyone could smell the queer off this guy from a planet away. Subtlety is dead and Moriarty stabbed it twenty times straight in the heart.

Okay so no, he's not alive, this is a flashback. He's still dead. I fucking hate this show.

But like I was saying before this show loves to merely hint at queerness or have gay characters (is it even characters plural? I can name one canon character who's gay and that's Irene Adler) and even then the gay character it has is so entranced by how hot and sexy and mysterious Sherlock is that she turns from a lesbian to bisexual. I'm not kidding. It's used in a scene to imply that both her and John could make an exception in their sexuality for the sake of Sherlock since she believes that John's very much in love with him. Anyone who says this show didn't queerbait it's audience must be blind. But anywho it loves to dangle the idea of queerness in front of you like a carrot on a stick without ever intending to deliver on it at all. It's kind of frustrating, actually. I don't particularly like it and its beyond me how anyone could treat this show as progressive. Oh well.

As for the finale, I don't like it so far. One could go as far as to say I kind of hate it. It seems as if they haven't given up on continuously making John Watson suffer for The Plot I guess. At first I figured it was a means of showing his loyalty, that no matter how awful things get between him and Sherlock or Mary, he'll stay loyal to those he loves the most. I think that's a good way of doing that, but then you kill off his wife, and make a man commit suicide in front of him after he refused to kill him himself, and at what point does it just sort of get ridiculous. Sure, the writers used it to establish a rift between John & Sherlock and showcase how no matter the circumstances, their bond overcomes everything. But they've done it a million times, and I feel like it was a hell of a lot better written in literally any other season besides this one. 

Speaking of that, I think they stopped doing it post season 3 which I'm grateful for, but I seriously hated when it turns out Sherlock had everything under control Actually and there was no stakes the whole time. Cheers! I remember getting mildly annoyed by the whole episode with the bomb and the train, it feels like it severely undercut how heartfelt Sherlock's words were in a moment where he thought he was actually gonna die since he could've just hit the off switch the whole time!! LOL!!! XD!!! Like could we please keep some stakes here, not everything has to be a trick. Sherlock doesn't have to be right all the time. That's another thing that mildly annoys me actually, the fact that Sherlock is almost never wrong, and when he is it's incredibly minute. I feel like having him be wrong more often (or just at least more than one or two times) could make him feel more human since the show is so hell bent on humanizing him. I didn't think the episode with Irene was godawful or bad (even if I have problems with it) I feel like having him somehow come out victorious when he gets beat in the original story was an awful change. He should lose sometimes, he should've lost to Irene.

And you know what else I'd like? EXPLANATIONS. EXPLAIN THINGS. PLEASE. I get this show is a mystery drama thriller thing, and I'm not saying I'd like it to hold my hand and explain every little thing to me like I'm three years old, but at least explain SOME things instead of just leaving them open ended and then making fun of the audience for theorizing about the show you refuse to elaborate on. COUGH COUGH. THE EMPTY HEARSE. I swear, this show loves to raise a lot of questions without providing you with any actual answers, truly lovely. 

And Moriarty. God. Moriarty. I have mixed feelings on him because I sort of liked him as a villain in season 2?? I don't know, I hated him at first but he sort of started to grow on me a little and I see him as a sort of compelling villain against Sherlock, especially with how he basically lives rent free in the niggas mind. But after his death it felt like they wanted to have a new, Moriarty type foe with Charles Augustus Magnussen but I'm sorry Moriarty washes him. I think Charles is creepy, very powerful, and knows how to use power effectively. He creeps me out, and I think he's a decent villain but in comparison to Moriarty you could not pay me enough money to care about him. They just couldn't let him die for whatever reason, so why not just bring him back at this point?? They did it with Sherlock, why not him?? I guess you could make the argument that his presence is more impactful since he continues to haunt the story post-mortem, but would anything really change THAT much if he was actually still alive? Well, the more I think about it yeah some things would change, having him dead is sort of for the best in that regard. I just wished the writers would've quit teasing the possibility of him returning, if he's dead he's dead. 

But let me actually finish this episode so I can give my full thoughts on it. One moment.

Post watching the episode. That shit was so bad I'm going to sleep. It's 4 am, I'm done wasting my energy on this.

TL;DR: just watch House MD instead.

1/6/25, I Keep Forgetting It's Not 2024 And It's Killing Me.

Welcome back to yet another episode of my digital diary friends and haters alike. Today is a particularly special day because it's a snow day!!! I get the day off!!! Isn't life so delightful? The snow's forecasted to be up to about 10 or 12 inches, which is completely wild to me. Hell, at this rate and if we get particularly lucky we might get tomorrow off as well, which sounds like a blessing to me. It reminds me of when I was younger, watching attentively at the news to see which counties were giving their students the snow day off and which ones weren't. It was generally a 50/50 chance on whether or not we'd get the day off, but seeing the other counties which almost always gave their kids the day off made me so pissed. [REDACTED STATE]-ians can die and go to hell.

At the moment I'm listening to some Margo Guryan recommended to me by Roxy (hi Roxy!), and I'm really really liking it. The intro to 'What Can I Give You' always reminds me of the Sesame Street opening, but I adore this song nonetheless. 27 Demos is a pretty solid album, I really really like it! I'm hoping I'll get to listen to a few more of her albums, and maybe dabble back in a bit of jazz. It's also making me wanna make a combination playlist of Margo Guryan & Sixpence None The Richer. Two completely different sounds, I know. I think it'd make for an interesting combination nonetheless. 

Speaking of music, I don't know if I mentioned this on here or not but while going out with my Aunt I managed to snag a copy of A Fever You Can't Sweat and MMM...FOOD from FYE (For Your Entertainment), and I'm so happy with these purchases. AFYCS is one of my favorite albums, probably my favorite Panic! At the Disco album. Its one of those albums that I listen to and adore every single song on it without thinking any of them are misses. I'm so, so happy that I have it on CD. I'm hoping that when I get a job I'll be able to buy myself more music, honestly it's the only thing making me really want a job at all. At the moment I really, REALLY want the CD singles for Nine in The Afternoon & That Green Gentleman. They're my favorite songs off of Pretty. Odd. and the album artwork for both are just mesmerizing. 

Looking at them makes me so happy. I love music so much.

Anyways, Discogs has them both listed as being for sale in the marketplace, so I'll just hope that when I actually gain some financial independence they'll still be up. I love Discogs, that place is like music nerd heaven. Like they have a listing for Here My Dear on the 8-track tape format, and I think that's the only album I'd ever be willing to get on an 8-track tape aside from like, maybe some stuff by Michael Jackson. Mainly cause who in their right mind still uses 8-track tapes anyways? Aside from music nerds obviously, but it doesn't seem like something I logically *should* want due to the pure absurdity of getting an 8-track tape player for maybe, what, one or two albums?? But temptation calls, it reigns me in like a shepherd reigning in their sheep. I will resist that temptation for now though, but if I ever have enough money to where I'll be able to blow it on absolutely useless crap, the Here My Dear 8-track tape is MINE.

OKAY. Music rambling aside, I think I still have more to talk about?? Roxy was not lying when she said that my blog posts are long, jesus. It's not my fault I have a hell of a lot of thoughts in my brain that I desperately need to release!! Using my private twitter isn't enough, how can I be even MORE talkative. By the way, while you're here go look at her blog. It's a lot prettier than mine, haha. 

I guess I could say that I've been getting into practicing digital painting as of late. It's mainly cause I'm not really good at it or even know where to start!! If I wanna be a better artist that seems like a skill I should try and work on improving upon. I actually made a list of things I wanted to improve upon art-wise, since I've just sort of been winging it this whole time without really knowing or understanding how I make my work look the way it does. Art is all about throwing shit at a wall and seeing what sticks, then keeping the shit that does stick and you sort of keep throwing more shit until you eventually get a consistent amount of shit that sticks in comparison to the ones that don't. Unless you actually put in the effort to study anatomy and perspective and all that junk, which sounds (and usually is) kind of boring unless you make it fun. I suck at anatomy, doing a study of a pose made me figure out my understanding of anatomy currently is actually pretty piss-poor (try saying that three times fast!) in comparison to how it actually works. Oops. I really gotta do more studies, man, I'm telling you.

At the moment I've just been painting apples whenever I feel like it on my iPad. It's pretty good practice in my opinion. The only thing I'm kind of struggling with is the learning curve from going to having a million layers to only using about 1-3 layers. I do one for the background, one for the apple and shadow, and one for the sketch. It's so, so weird. But I think I just need more purractice to adjust is all.

Anywho, I think that's all. I gotta go do some registration stuff for college courses this spring. Typing that sentence feels weird, I hate growing up. But I'll catch you on the flipside! This is Spidey, signing out.

1/3/25, I hate Roxy.

 Okay updating because Roxy told me to. Thank her.

So! It’s the new year, 2025. I’ve been in North Carolina throughout the entire week and I had a pretty shitty time getting here. I threw up on the plane, almost blacked out, and generally had a pretty shitty time landing in NC since I had to spend it in the bathroom. Probably the weirdest flying related experience I've had in my life. But I was supposed to be catching my flight back home today and they had to cancel it! Why? Because of shitty weather. Oh well, Today was alright regardless so I don't really mind.

I spent like almost all day on Roblox with Roxy for a bit, my new friend Rose & my not very new friend Danny. We played Arsenal a bit, I was wayy better at it than Overwatch I can tell you that much. Then it was just me and Danny before Rose joined back and we all played fucking Roblox Fart Simulator Together.

It was a lot more fun than it sounds, I swear. I sucked at the game though and it took me a full hour to level up while Rose beat it in minutes. I hate Rose, it's too much of a sweat. I did end up playing Adopt and Raise a Homestuck for a bit after before we all played Roblox High School and did some roleplay. Daniel was the dad, me and Rose were his kids. We got stuck in a white van, went to McDonald's, went to school, and went to the club. I ended up getting in a fight with some 9 year old on Roblox too.

Roblox is great, highly recommend. After that Roxy joined back the call and we all played Ponytown together!!! I got a great shot of all of our ponies together.

Good times, I love playing games with my friends. But other than me being chronically online, that was about it. 7/10 day, can't complain much. I gotta go to sleep soon since my flight is at like 7 am in the morning tomorrow, catch you on the flip side!